Aug 08 | CPE Journal #25: July 24th

Our time on the units is done.

Now we have a few days to sit and tell each other about our experiences. I’ve noticed that we’ve all become quite relaxed, and have been laughing a lot.

One of my classmates made a beautiful spelling mistake in his evaluation: instead of writing “follow-up” he wrote “fellow-up.” I thought it was lovely! It’s like keeping in touch with friends, or if you have had an emotional support or spiritual care meeting. I have noticed that a few classmates have had a very easy time saying, “I have done well.” I want to learn more from that way of being, more about self-celebration.

Another classmate was working the unit where “Prayers”, my first ever patient, was transferred. It felt good to hear this patient pop up in that evaluation, and the wonderful care being given. A couple of times I wished I had followed Prayers to this classmate’s unit and felt bad that I didn’t. I no longer felt bad after hearing the evaluation. I had received a touch on the shoulder the last time I had seen Prayers, who came over to do physio regularly and was at that time walking along (!) with a brand new prosthetic leg. Unfortunately, Prayers has since left AMA, so I was never able to say goodbye. I can only hope Prayers is held by God, and eventually comes to place of feeling found. I wish we had had the time to sing “Amazing Grace” together.

At the end of each summary, we all took turns blessing the presenter. I didn’t present my final evaluation today, deciding to save it for tomorrow – our last day of class.

-Clarity